No Love Though

              Okay it is not hard to see that I am single LOL.... I'm just going to jump straight into whats going and how I feel because it is really taking a toll on my conscience. I really liked this guy at my school but I never thought of talking to him like that or trying to pursue him in anyway. He was just someone I admire from afar whenever I saw him. So...long story short he got my number and we were texting for a quite a while until I saw him because at that point I had not seen him since that last semester. A month went by and we finally we out. After that little first "date" I did not like him. I was just turned completely off. Now, he has nice conversations, good things going for him, but I was just not attracted to him like I was. I'm telling my friends this and there are like just give him another chance maybe it was awkward the first time or whatever so I agreed. I gave it another shot but I really already had my mind made up about how I felt...How know maybe it was gonna change. Anyway the second date and it went so much better than the first date, but I still did feel attracted to him, like I honestly didn't find him a ounce appealing to besides his conversation. So time is passing and I'm getting texts everyday from him and calls and things like that but I'm in the back of my head like " I don't like you, leave me alone". Me saying this to myself is obviously not making him go away. Now too much time has moved on and I'm still getting texts and calls pretending like I'm busy and lying basically on why I'm not responding. At this point the people I'm seeking advice from are telling me to just tell that you just wanna be a friend and how you feel. But! It has gotten to a point where i don't want to hurt his feeling because I know he likes me. So this text I got from him today was just a hey and i didn't respond. He felt some type of way and made a statement on instagram....now my name not tagged but....come on na lol. So now I think I should just let him know it's not like that and I'm sorry you really like but I got a lot of me to work on....Yall don't even know what I like about him before we even started talking...am I crazy lbvs? does anybody feel like that sometimes with someone they like but then don't like lol...I think I'm single because of me. I really wanna be in a relationship but do I really though because I am a very to-myslef-don't-need-love-and-affection-from-a-guy person and i don't wan to block myself from a good one but I do know it is me half of the time smh.  P.S. I over think everything but I honestly just don't like him in the way he likes me.