Zara Fall Fashion 2014

Dress: Topshop 

Booties: H&M

Hair: Indique coil curl

Scarf: Zara 

Shoes: Zara 

Bag: H&M 

Black/white Turtleneck: Gap

Hair update (New Products)

Hey! I wanted to give you a natural hair update since it's now fall and eventually going into winter. Well... since school started I've really been busy and not taking care of my hair like I should. I usually have a sew-in around this time of year, but I am waiting to purchase the perfect hair, so I'm natural for now. This is a struggle for me because I have to think about my hair in the morning before I walk out the door. Lately I just throw a cap on or put the goddess braid in my head since it would last a few days. On top of doing that my hair was previously in the Havana Marley Twist. I don't like to wash my hair often because I don't think I need to. African American hair grows when it's dirty. As an young girl when my hair was down my back I only got my hair wash or done on special occasion/holidays. I don't know where it came from that washing my hair every two week is something important. It works for some people and for others not so much. However, my scalp was very dry and itchy, so I decided that I needed a good oil treatment. I really didn't want to wash my hair but I did. I figured this would be the last time I'll wash it before I get a sew-in next month. So, I used all Shea Moisture products in my hair (Shampoo, Conditioner, Curling Gel Souffle), but for my hot oil treatment I used the Argan Oil Treatment. When I massaged the oil treatment into my head and scalp, I put the conditioning heat cap oil. OMG!!!!! my scalp and hair felt amazing. I had never tried this hot oil treatment before, so I was impressed. My hair feels so healthy and moisturized....Not too oily. Finally I wanted to do a hairstyle that would last, so I did a bantu knot using the Sea Moisture Curling Gel Souffle (Review coming soon). Here is the process and ending result :)

Our Love

Wow! This weekend was very interesting just because of my sister and I relationship. Firstly, I would do almost anything for my little sister but we get on each other last nerves...it's crazy. When I come home for the weekend from school she says that when she gets in the most trouble. Now...I will admit that when I'm home, things are going on and I peep things. She is a teenager now so she is in between stages in her life. But!!! She doesn't listen to my mom like she should sometime or she just have her priorities messed up. Soooo when I'm hkme I call her out and she thinks I want to her to get in the trouble. I'm trying to help her do things she does won't happen again but that's where we don't see eye-to-eye. Now we never got to the point where we both are crying at the situation. She saying thing I never heard her say and it made me so sad that she thought that way or even thought I want her to get her in trouble like that. It was a mess!!!!!!!! My mom don't play that, so she we were all talking and she told my sister and I off lol. And the end we had to apologize and huge each other. It was hard to even think that happen just because of the relationship we have. We are very close. Maybe too close but I have no problem with having my little sister right there with me in my life journey in the passenger seat. She's 

Only following my footsteps, I obviously inspire her and she inspires me. I appreciate her so much. I decided right then in that moment that I never want to have that issue with my sister again. I love her to much for and I know that hurt my mom to see that. Now that evey thing is good. I made a promise to myself that I will stay in a big sisters place and be there for her no matter what. I understand she going through a stage so I am willing to be her everything...along with my mom of course. She's my taller shadow:) 

Time To Go Hard

HEY!!!!!!! Man I don't know where the heck time went BUT...I'm back because I never left.  I've been very busy this pass summer with my internship. I didn't really have a summer because I hardly went out and got a chance to enjoy the moment unless I was at a family function (Still Fun though lol). SOOOOO I'm really excited to start back blogging for my last year as an undergraduate student. I have so many stories that has helped build my character thus far, but of course I know I have way more to learn in the future. Basically, This blog will be the entry of my new new beginning of the new new journey on hahahahaa.

UPDATES:

-Redecorating my room in my apartment :) pic coming soon

-I got a boyfriend and his name is Homework LOL

-My and I have sorted all our issues and moving forward living another year together

-I'm doing the natural hair thing while in school b/c i usually have weave and let me just say it's a struggle -_-

-I made a quite a few thousands this summer working, so I invested in stocks at Ariel Investment Company

Morning Update

Good morning, 

I am blogging this morning to update myself and keep in mind that I am on my journey of self love. Right now I am listening to India.Arie - I Am Light, which is something I will be doing every morning with my aunt. It has truly been hard for me to get adjusted to a new chapter in my life. I work at a non-profit for the summer and it has really taught me more than I thought I would learn in just this short period of time. I struggle with my confidence starting out and was very intimidated with the people around me. I did not feel smart at all. One day at work I could not take it anymore, after I received a call from my apartment....About some BS yall!!! that wash IT! I was pissed throughout my whole meeting at work. In addition, my boss starts talking to me about how I need to do this... and need to do that...and "that is why people act the way they do with you and BLAH BLAH BLAH". I was fed up and stormed out of the office. I could not stop crying on my way home because I was sick of hearing the same shit...like SICK! I was disgusted and angry at myself. 

Look! my mom and I had long talk...and let me you something. I have never felt like what she said will change my whole attitude when I walk into work but it did. Than, I went to brunch with my aunt who is a positive life coach and she gave me activities to do so that I may reflect on myself and attitude towards doing only what makes ME happy. I mean I was so ready to get back to work on mondayyyyy lol. To just them that that was the old me in the pass. Everyday I come in with a smile and Good morning!!! no matter what. 

I know that this is all apart of me understanding who I am and learning how I want to go forth with working with people in my career so I am accepting it. This self love journey is crazy starting out, I'm pretty much alone, so I starting to get comfortable with it though. I have great ideas for the summer coming up for myself and I plan to accomplish them all..AND I WILL. 

UPDATE!!!!- So at the moment I am still working in the with the non-profit organization, putting my human resources skills to work like Creating document, Interviewing people and etc. 

-I started my no-heat challenge for my hair this month with a co-worker. I do this every summer but I always blow dry my hair. This summer I'm not even doing that, so I'm going to be rocking a lot of twist outs.

-I looking for an apartment kind of without my roommate knowing because I don't feel she need to know whatI'm doing when she not even concern with bills ( the truth )

-Waking up with my daily devotion, praying everyday because I know prayer works, blogging, dancing and teaching dance, reading my grateful work book and living my life like it is golden!

Where is she?

Numerous things has happened today that caused me to reaction emotionally. I'm not a emotional person, even though I'm sensitive, I do not show emotion. However, today was a interesting day because I cried like a baby in the car on my way home from work. I was disgusted with myself and how I handle things. I know I can be a push over but my boss sent me over the edge, as well as my roommate. I cannot blame anyone but myself for how I have allow people to treat me in certain situations. I cannot understand for the life of me what is wrong with myself, in terms of speaking up, being heard, correcting people, letting my light shine, and etc. I'm so angry with myself because I know I'm capable o doing everything the next person can do. I doubt myself and get intimidated easily, which doesn't take much. After my boss call herself reading me, I burst in to tears and walked out the office. I'm so sick of hearing the same thing over and over and over again. At that point I just wanted to go home and I did. I'm so upset with myself like...I'm suppose to be tying a good thing right now and so far my summer has been the opposite concerning the things I thought would be different by now. Mentally and emotionally I'm lost as to where do I go to find Dekka and bring the best person she can be through every situation that comes my way ???

 

Any suggestions...

Self Reflect

Life can hit you with so many different things at once but it is all for a reason. The fact that we all make it through every situation matters, no matter how long it takes. People can be inconsiderate of you or only think of themselves which is fine...but that not okay for you to accept it all the time. Once you self reflect on things, you realize how much of a better person you are without all the Riff-Raff of others opinions or ew vibes around you. I've been feeling like this for a while and it is so refreshing to understand that you can remove yourself from others if you don't want to be around. This process does not have to spiteful in any way, you just simply remove yourself the best way possible. Nowadays people don't get the hint, so you have to be aggressive with your action. It was hard for me in the beginning but I realized that I was only hurting myself being around others I didn't want to be around. I encourage anyone to do this as a experience this just to self reflect on how you feel about a person or creating a a relationship with yourself and God. There is nothing wrong with that because at the end of the day I am my own best friend and I will love God and  myself first.