Where is she?

Numerous things has happened today that caused me to reaction emotionally. I'm not a emotional person, even though I'm sensitive, I do not show emotion. However, today was a interesting day because I cried like a baby in the car on my way home from work. I was disgusted with myself and how I handle things. I know I can be a push over but my boss sent me over the edge, as well as my roommate. I cannot blame anyone but myself for how I have allow people to treat me in certain situations. I cannot understand for the life of me what is wrong with myself, in terms of speaking up, being heard, correcting people, letting my light shine, and etc. I'm so angry with myself because I know I'm capable o doing everything the next person can do. I doubt myself and get intimidated easily, which doesn't take much. After my boss call herself reading me, I burst in to tears and walked out the office. I'm so sick of hearing the same thing over and over and over again. At that point I just wanted to go home and I did. I'm so upset with myself like...I'm suppose to be tying a good thing right now and so far my summer has been the opposite concerning the things I thought would be different by now. Mentally and emotionally I'm lost as to where do I go to find Dekka and bring the best person she can be through every situation that comes my way ???

 

Any suggestions...